Have you seen the movie, The Holiday, with Kate Winslet and Cameron Diaz? Well, if you have you know Kate’s character, Iris, is in love with Jasper played by Rufus Sewell. He ends up marrying some other woman, but wants to keep Iris as side action.
I was Iris.
I love a man, who will never love me the way I want to be loved. At the moment, he loves another woman, but wants to keep me around as an extra.
After talking to him tonight, I realized how I’m not the leading lady and I’m behaving like Iris. Decided after this realization, I have to stop talking to him. I want more from him. I want him to love me. I want him to see me as the special woman he can’t be without. The reality is what I want is just that wants and that’s it.
I deserve to be the leading lady. I deserve a man, who is going to love me the way I want to be loved. I deserve to be happy. I know there is a man out there, who is the man I’ve been looking for and will treat me like his Queen.
Lesson learned: Know what I want. Don’t settle. Love myself. And, the one guy I’m looking for will come into my life.